What do I want to say?

The time finally has come. I  don't know that this will be so painful. I realized since long time ago that I have to face this whenever the time will be. I'm supposed to be not surprised. But I never expect that it will come fast, will come on these days, when I haven't prepared anything. Um, actually I will never be ready for it. Well, it should be the end of the story. It will be hard to forget and I want to ask for apologize. I hope it can be better sooner and I hope I won't lost it all.  Now, it's the time to say good bye, dear.. -end of 2023

I can live my feeling alone in this full-of-people environment, in this crowded world. -September 6th 2023.

One thing that I always have to remember: "I can arrive here not only because of my own efforts but also because all of my friends who were with me on this trip." -December 17th 2019

It was started as a pleasant rain of memories until I opened a lot of our collections. I couldn't handle the storm that came over me at the end. -April 12th 2022

What is love? Is it love? What I've been feeling all along, is love? When exactly did I fall in love with you? Why could I love you?  How can this feeling last long until today? --- I love you. Do you love me too? -April 6th 2022

Manusia itu memang egois. Iya, kamu, iya, aku juga. Akan ada waktu ketika kamu dan aku memiliki pemikiran yang berbeda tentang satu hal dan itu akan selalu berbeda, sulit untuk disamakan. -Maret 2022

I didn't think about you but I saw you interacting with me in my dream. Is this what 'I always hope to see you again' feel like even though in the reality I say it's okay if we can't? -March 1st 2022.

"I want to be born again as rain. When the living things have their expiry, rain will always be there as long as the earth still has its time, eventhough it could come only in few months of a year. The rain will come to you in every summer, a season when we first met." -February 2022. A sudden-thinkable-sentences that were inspired by scenes from 100 Days My Prince serie and short story written by a friend based on Voice series.

I think I could keep some things these several years. I could, but I remembered you if I had one or two. I truly wanted to tell it to you but I knew you won't listen anymore. They left in my mind, unspoken, as always. -July, 2021